I feel better balanced and less prone to obsession than ever before. I went to strip clubs originally to get away from my obsessions, it's that way again. I'm like a Napoleon III Second Empire figure, in blue jumper, black eyes. It's like being in the engine room of an ocean liner. Go out dripping with sex, eyes black mascara-lined, drunk on power and lust, like Wedekind, Machiavelli going to brothels. I have a power.