Thursday, 27 September 2018

AUTISMUS, LOTTA and THE COLD ICY AIR OF THE MOUNTAINS all now published in paperback with the covers how I want them

AUTISMUS, LOTTA and THE COLD ICY AIR OF THE MOUNTAINS all now published in paperback with the covers how I want them. Work on CASANOVA now. If I cannot travel at this time, then let me make productive use of my time.


Tuesday, 25 September 2018

THERAPY is good; I feel I will publish it in paperback form (contributing to these 60-80 books I talk about!). I still feel the urge to riff on it in Munich rich fauna style

THERAPY is good; I feel I will publish it in paperback form (contributing to these 60-80 books I talk about!). I still feel the urge to riff on it in Munich rich fauna style. Still feel it is a starting point to do something fabulous. "How I love the sounds of the jungle" repeating motif. ** How lovely walking in and out of the Berlin Plaza bar. That just came to me. The sight of it, pulling open that door and stepping inside. But I think I will always stay at the Kanthotel in future. As it is next door to the only two or three places left, and a McDonald's! On the way to Hamburg, that will be only reason to go back to Berlin I think.
How lovely walking into the Dorint bar. Amazing feeling. The memories of the Intercity Munich, though I suspect I will in future stay at the cheap Schillerstrasse places for cheapness. Hunger for the voluptuous floozies of Fifth Avenue, and lovely black Cine Paris. Hungry for Manhattan Vienna and WSK.


Monday, 24 September 2018

How I loved reading my Lotta book on train home. Suddenly realised I can soon have LOADS of books out there for sale in paperback

How I loved reading my Lotta book on train home. Suddenly realised I can soon have LOADS of books out there for sale in paperback. AUTISMUS, LOTTA, THE COLD ICY AIR OF THE MOUNTAINS, to be followed by CASANOVA, THROUGH THE LOOKING GLASS, TRAVEL DIARY 2013, TRAVEL DIARY 2014 TWELFTH NIGHT, TRAVEL DIARY 2015, TRAVEL DIARY 2016, etc. A record of one man's journey through life, and around the fleshpots of Europe where he comes alive, and his flesh and spirit sings.
 *** Open my eyes 128pm Sunday after long intense dream, about railway company forced to change their timetables to fit in my with my demands, but when I look at it closely they are still far from giving me what they owe me! The spark for this dream quite obvious. The ongoing stress of my battle to claim my -- rights. My patience run out now. I will give -- to midday Monday perhaps, rather than end of day. Had enough. Let's resolve this once and for all.

Wednesday, 19 September 2018

Going to Vienna is another £1,000 on my credit card debt straight off. Night in Munich, three nights in Vienna, two nights in Brussels

Going to Vienna is another £1,000 on my credit card debt straight off. Night in Munich, three nights in Vienna, two nights in Brussels. Vienna for January then, Twelfth Night. Brussels a nice relaxing week at end of November. Time for Byron's house, Baudelaire's hotel, Duchess of Richmond's house. Perhaps a night trip to Frankfurt, day trip to Namur. All depends doesn't it, on what -- come back with.   *** Face fat, stomach tubby, but still just hanging on to 14'13. Reading through The Cold Icy Air of the Mountains, Christ makes me long to go back to all those places, Berlin Sissi and Monte Carlo even, Munich Schillerstrasse, Vienna Gurtel; and go back and splash the money around and not care about my debt going up. Live like money no object again; I will always earn enough to afford some rent somewhere(?). Money not important, that report in paper today, it is sex and sleep that determine our happiness. Yearn for Brussels in November now, yearn for Vienna in January--fly? Now even tempted to fly again, to make it cheaper and quicker. No more of those painful painful long cross-Europe train  journeys from Brussels to Munich, changing at Koln or Frankfurt in the middle. SUCH WASTED TIME! I waste whole days in travelling. Get 1pm flight from Heathrow straight from work. Straight to Heathrow for 1pm flight, in Vienna 230pm, in Dorint by 4pm--to WSK straight, then Cafe West End, then Manhattan. Tuesday ALL DAY in Vienna. Wednesday early morning flight back to London, back home for work Wednesday night. Yes, I think flying must come back for me. Check relative cost of train tickets to Vienna vs flights. Also saves on hotels in Munich/Brussels etc.

Monday, 17 September 2018

This morning I had sudden craving for Cine Paris. Then even more WSK. Nothing like being in a porn cinema with your cock out with other cocks out all around you

This morning I had sudden craving for Cine Paris. Then even more WSK. Nothing like being in a porn cinema with your cock out, with other cocks out all around you. Then getting home I felt craving for a private dance with --. She is sexy, that face, even though she has an incredibly boyish body. *** We will see. Spirit low right now. But remember Brussels, Cine Paris, Fifth Avenue, Vienna WSK Manhattan. Zurich. My books. -- in blue dress. The pure joy of being in WSK being wanked in the lobby by that Mongolian girl. Pure joy of a six-hour session in Cine Paris Brussels. Pure joy of sitting in a bar full of half-dressed floozies like Fifth or Manhattan. What joy there is. Might as well die owing LOTS of money. As long as I can pay my rent.
The happiest moments of my life have come in Manhattan with Adelina, in Fifth with Inna, Andrea, Lucy, Diane, Leyla. That is where I belong and where I must always be as much as possible. There are always more Adelinas, Dianas waiting. Try Beatrice again. DON'T THINK ABOUT WORK. THINK ABOUT ADELINA IN MANHATTAN, DIANE IN FIFTH AVENUE. WSK WANKS. THAT IS ALL THAT MATTERS. PRIAPISM. BEAUTIFUL NUBILE YOUNG PAINTED FLOOZIES.



Sunday, 16 September 2018

Grey, cold. Lovely going to work Friday, dank drizzly evening. The Fu Manchu trees looked so dark and beautiful

Grey, cold. Lovely going to work Friday, dank, drizzly evening. The Fu Manchu trees looked so dark and beautiful. Maybe grab some lager to knock me out on the way home then I can stay home all day Sunday. Monday then try to go for that late Calcutta nightcap.
I don't want interest rates to go up of course, but the best time to travel will be after they do, meaning after November perhaps; maybe even wait for Twelfth Night. Surely I will pop back to Brussels for three days though before end of the year.
** Christ so many stonking big booty big booby girls just outside Charing Cross tonight, and then all the evening dress sexy booby b*tches outside the IOD. Now we are into Autumn, it really is true, all the sexy girls come out. This is my time of year. The witching months begin. In summer I see NOTHING. Now cold dark autumn is here, all the sexy girls come out. Why I HAVE to go to the Calcutta for NIGHTCAPS, AFTER 7pm. Force myself on Monday. It is so hard to stay in all day, but the rewards are great. *** September 4-10: "The week of important decisions in the fog of the Neptunian FULL MOON".  ALREADY I am thinking would be nice to see C-- naked again, to see J--'s fantastic arse again. And check L--. And that big girl V--.

Wednesday, 12 September 2018

I AM HEADING INTO THE MOST DRAMATIC STORMY SEAS OF MY LIFE NOW. I CAN ONLY LOSE ULTIMATELY BUT I WILL ENJOY IT

I AM HEADING INTO THE MOST DRAMATIC STORMY SEAS OF MY LIFE NOW. I CAN ONLY LOSE ULTIMATELY BUT I WILL ENJOY IT. YES HEADING INTO MOST STORMY SEAS OF MY LIFE, AND DON'T I LOVE THAT! I AM A SINGLE MAN NOW AND THAT MAKES ME INVINCIBLE. BRING IT ON. BYRON WENT THROUGH THIS.

On -- platform this autumnal dank evening looking at my Magritte tree and my Fu Manchu trees I was thinking I am strong aren't I

On -- platform this autumnal dank evening, looking at my Magritte tree, and my Fu Manchu trees, I was thinking I am strong aren't I. I am strong enough to deal with this, I always have done, and always come back stronger. Chaos is a ladder. I will benefit from this. Just keep calm and keep patient, continue to be clever.

Tuesday, 11 September 2018

On Sunday train busty blonde came through doors from next carriage and sat down in seats across from me

On Sunday train busty blonde came through doors from  next carriage and sat down in seats across from me, white crocheted top, blue jeans, really curvy. What a figure. Got up before B-- to straighten her top and let me have a good look at her. Victoria itself was boring, now the weather has turned cold, apart from the cute Dutch barmaid. The cold weather may make it easier not to go out on my days off, but Christ if you don't go out and don't travel anymore what is the point of even living? Better to carry on living, drinking, f--king, and run up the debt. They cannot pursue you for it when you're dead and we will all be dead soon enough, with North Korean nukes flying around. Why live like a monk for years of austerity and then get killed by a nuclear bomb? Might as well go on living my decadent, travelling life, and run up the high debt; oh, it is just the repayments and interest is so high isn't it, literally impossible to make my repayments AND pay rent..
Anyway this long abstention from travelling has enabled me to achieve great things, I have reduced my credit card debt by more than £3,000, I have published AUTISMUS and LOTTA in paperback, with THE COLD ICY AIR OF THE MOUNTAINS soon to join them. I was doing so well! How sad if -- are now going to ruin it. So unfair. Anyway £--K is a good starting point, to rise again. A good base, and more changes could improve things again. Of course I had to resist --; that kept me free for the -- discovery.

-- from Sao Paulo and just started one week ago. Amazing dream before I woke this morning

-- from Sao Paulo and just started one week ago. Amazing dream before I woke this morning, walked into pub the Blind Beggar in the East End somewhere, and there is live sex going on all around me, fat old naked men being sucked off by naked floozies. Young sexy barmaid in see-through blue top so I could see her nipples. So sexy. Then couple of sexy blonde floozies were beckoning to me but when I approached the one I liked she shook her head and said sorry, she didn't like my face apparently! What a sexy dream.
A coda to that Blind Beggar dream is I got home and logged in and was watching live stream of the sex going on inside the pub! And recorded footage from before, and realised I was being filmed while I had my trousers down without realising it!

Friday, 7 September 2018

I feel so powerful right now (this can change in a moment of course)

I feel so powerful right now (this can change in a moment of course). But I feel I am just coming into the edge of my power, my Jupiter power, just coming into the penumbra of it and preparing to enter the full intensity of its power full blast from October 10 onwards.


Thursday, 6 September 2018

My credit cards down to £19,948 at last just with minimum repayments

My credit cards down to £19,948 at last, just with minimum repayments. I won't risk any extra now. That is £3,000 reduction since same day last year. Well done. But still so painfully slow of course. If it is still as high as £16,948 this time next year or worse that will be devastating. I would need it to be down to £12,948 to feel happy but with this -- disaster little prospect of that EVER happening now. So no need to bother tightening belt, again all out Munich and Vienna. Jupiter in Scorpio from October 10th for following 13 months.

Wednesday, 5 September 2018

Wow Jupiter in Scorpio October 10th 2017 to November 2018. 13 months of Jupiter in my sign!

Wow Jupiter in Scorpio, October 10th 2017 to November 2018. 13 months of Jupiter in my sign! Last there 2004--and you remember what an extraordinary year that was! The three Munich visits, then the three Berlin visits, & everything else into 2005. Makes me feel like I can have the most pleasurable time of my life again in Brussels and Vienna in the next 13 months!

Tuesday, 4 September 2018

This week 21, 20, 18, 19, 17. Autumn is here! My cock still so beautiful

This week 21, 20, 18, 19, 17. Autumn is here! My cock still so beautiful. That is why I do need to travel and use it. While there is still anywhere left to use it. ** I did well just having 4 pints on Friday AND Saturday. I will try to stick to this discipline going forward. Even staying in on Sundays would be good! When going to Vienna I might as well luxuriate and stay for 4 or 5 days because really each extra day only costs £50. It is the journey there & back which is the expensive thing. Then I can relax, take time to go to The Night Porter cafe if I want, Belvedere, Leopold, KHM, etc etc. All depends on what we find out at work of course.
Work on Lotta now, should have it published by end of day in paperback form, no reason why not. Then at work I can work on The Cold Icy Air of the Mountains, have that in paperback by end of week. 120PM Lotta done, uploaded. ***
One afternoon visit to -- costs me more than two nights in a Vienna hotel, that is the crazy thing.


Monday, 3 September 2018

745pm Sunday night helicopter starts circling around & around above us again. Let's see how long it lasts

745pm Sunday night helicopter starts circling around & around above us again. Let's see how long it lasts. Just re-edited and published Autismus in about space of 5 hours. Put back in all the Sidonie and Moloch pea-souper stuff, and all the early stuff around the Sleeping Beauty period. Increase of 12 paragraphs to 70. Still 44 pages on my computer. Lotta should be a lot easier, I will do that tomorrow.
I have to congratulate myself, my foresight meant I could spend this whole week of travel chaos at home (in the iron Duke). Would like to see L-- again. So in six days off I got through £138. Not bad really is it. I was sure I was going to be tempted to Brussels for £300-400. So I got through the whole week off very cheaply No strippers, nothing but a few beers each day. Did well. Blessing that A--, I-- and S-- have all vanished at the same time. Perhaps too this -- "scare" if scare is all it is has helped me, by forcing me to stay in London this week and reconcentrate my mind. That is IF it was only a scare and does not become a reality.
Christ it's September! I've actually managed to get through the whole summer!

I realise I only used to see those massive breast women at the Calcutta and the single women making sidelong glances at me when I used to go in for NIGHTCAPS

I realise I only used to see those massive breast women at the Calcutta, and the single women making sidelong glances at me, when I used to go in for NIGHTCAPS, after 8pm at night. That was the sexy time. I must start doing that again. Doing my writing all day, and then with relief and pleasure and joy at sense of achievement, go out to the Calcutta in the evening for a couple of hours. Sunday today, try it today, but better on week days of course.
Four in the Iron Duke again on Saturday. Friday there was most amazing black-hair girl in sheath black dress over massive arse and even more massive Zeppelin tits, followed her into Smith's just to look at those tits some more.
It is good sticking to four these days. That is enough if I can do it. Discipline myself. Oh, but so hard to stay in all day. I had a great thought on the train home, a great tweet, a great realisation and I thought type it on my phone so as not to forget, but I thought no, I won't forget, but I have forgotten. Nights starting to draw in now, even nicer to go for those late Calcuttas. How nice those Vienna pictures look. But I have to DO more next time. Denitsa or anyone, but do SOMETHING with SOMEONE.

Will go out this afternoon to CHARING X thank God

Will go out this afternoon to CHARING X thank God. Presuming it and the Calcutta are open now. Then north to Beatrice? Wait for -- which I am sure will not come as they only tweet every other day. And no A--, I-- or S--, so no point. Work on THE COLD ICY AIR OF THE MOUNTAINS. Publish paperback copies of AUTISMUS and LOTTA also. Imagine going on holiday with  MY paperback book in my hand.

Saturday, 1 September 2018

Definitely feeling autumnal now. Clear blue blazing skies but very very cool, fresh. I can feel the cold icy air of the mountains for sure now. Oh it IS September!

Definitely feeling autumnal now. Clear blue blazing skies but very very cool, fresh. I can feel the cold icy air of the mountains for sure now. Oh, it IS September! Funny, this whole week off and it never even crossed my mind to jump on coach or train to Brussels. Dreamt I fell off a roof last night. Crossing Charing Cross Station then going down the steps down into Villiers Street then suddenly they ended at a precipice hundreds of feet from the ground. I had to scramble back up over rooftops and fragile skylights, but then fell off the side and was hanging from an iron rod from wall. Somehow eventually I was able to jump the last few feet to the ground, then was walking across Charing Cross Station just in white T-shirt and boxer shorts, then was in Estee Lauder type shop and black girl was lamenting I would be sacked, as I always did more than the others.
It woud be lovely to be in Vienna again wouldnt it? To luxuriate in Cafe Westend, then back to room to sleep, out later for Manhattan. Up early for midday WSK every day. One night in Munich on way, one night in Brussels on way back. Last week of November if so if at all, but that depends on being given --, which is surely not going to happen.