Tuesday, 30 April 2019

So a very dull Full Moon in Scorpio Monday/Walpurgis Night!

So a very dull Full Moon in Scorpio Monday/Walpurgis Night! 12 o'clock to Charing Cross, D-- behind bar, two pints then to --, small Spanish girl. Went in the Coal Hole but turned around as two men behind bar, then to Nell Gwynn but turned around as some Indian girl behind bar (though quite busty it seemed). Back to Calcutta for two more then home, and stuffed myself. Pigged out, indigestion. Still awake 2am didn't feel comfortable to sleep before. Though a little dream, some blonde girl coming in the gate late at night, black stockings, posting something then leaving.
Rachel Raxxx. Marie Leone.
Why get involved with S-- when B-- is so much sexier?
NO. I NEED TO STAY OUT OF CLUTCHES OF S-- AND B--. DO NOTHING UNTIL I HAVE MY OWN LITTLE NEST AGAIN. RETURN TO AUSTERITY MODE TO WORK FOR THAT.

Monday, 29 April 2019

Just realised Monday would be perfect day to go look for Scarlett in Shepherd Market

Just realised Monday would be perfect day to go look for Scarlett in Shepherd Market, as it is going to be heavy rain & breezy ALL DAY! The rain should give wonderful cover. She just posted a clip of her bottom in schoolgirl outfit. Amazing bottom. Also the black girl is normally in Calcutta. And can always pop into -- on way back from Shepherd Market like last time. I was thinking to stay in as no ogling will be possible, but for chance at last to see Scarlett I think it has to be done.


Thursday, 25 April 2019

Tuesday morning new tweet from Scarlet about a new English/Indian girl at Shepherd Market Wednesday size 10 with 38DD boobs!

Tuesday morning new tweet from Scarlet about a new English/Indian girl at Shepherd Market Wednesday, size 10 with 38DD boobs! Dangerously eroticised since then and all I thought about yesterday was what time to get to Shepherd Market today. They don't even start until 4pm though. Start late in Calcutta then find a pub in Piccadilly close to the place. Pina Napolitano at 730 of course. Interesting NO desire to go back to -- today.
My bank already in minus now, so might as well pay my cards today. The spare money I am afraid all went in the -- this week. And maybe today as well in Shepherd Market.*** So got 2 o'clock to Charing Cross. Black beauty behind bar in white T-shirt. Had two then got bus to Shepherd Market. One Peroni in King's Arms, £5.85! Then into No.30 just after 4pm, slim blonde, Laila cancelled! Bus back to Piccadilly then walking past -- saw it was empty so went in and S-- was behind bar, turned and looked at me expressionlessly, "long time". She changed TV channel for me and I had chance to luxuriate in sight of her voluptuous bottom in jeans and swell of her breasts in that black shirt. Wanted her. Then she called her family, her mum and dad were out with her little girl. Told them "I will be finishing in half an hour". Was that for me? Back to Charing X and couple more in Calcutta, so drunk more than I wanted, but excitement of S-- made it necessary. High because of seeing her.
Maybe Shepherd Market could be an option for me, long way from Soho, wait to see what this Laila is like next week.

Tuesday, 23 April 2019

Interesting I feel NO desire to see -- this week and for sure NO desire to have any relationship with her

Interesting I feel NO desire to see -- this week, and for sure NO desire to have any relationship with her, instead a kind of phobia & revulsion at both thoughts--due to the horrific expense of money involved. This hopefully will save me.
Sunday night, on my train and then passing me at the Strand bus stop petite black girl, plum off shoulder top over bouncy tits and obviously no bra! So so sexy, those bouncy soft boobies naked under that thin plum material. Tight black jeans, straight black hair so sexy. And getting on at --, like -- black girl ++. Skintight green top over big knockers, and skintight black skirt & stockings over huge hips and butt. Sensational.
Will the Turk ever move centre stage in my life I have always wondered? I wonder if that will finally happen with --.
Saturday night "A steamy launderette atmosphere, and smell. Thundery, lashing with rain, 1am, but warm".
Sleep all day Tuesday with two cans I hope, and Wednesday would be great to stay in as well. Two days of overcast breezy 15C only. Heatwave over. Pina Napolitano at SJSS hopefully I can avoid. Though the programme of Schoenberg, Berg & Webern is perfect. Now just worried and thinking only about -- coming to tell -- why he has to sack me.

Monday, 22 April 2019

No my desire to see -- in Soho is making me dangerously eroticised

No, my desire to see -- in Soho is making me dangerously eroticised. The £9,999 is not going to happen. STAY THE F**K AWAY FROM THE --. Or go once a week to see that beautiful --. Allow myself these little pleasures throughout the summer. Off Tuesday and Wednesday, sleep all day Tuesday I hope, then Wednesday night is Pina Napolitano playing Schoenberg, Berg & Webern at SJSS 730pm! So tempted! -- at -- around 6pm, then jump on bus to rush back to SJSS! An exciting night!


Saturday, 20 April 2019

So got through about £240 in two days all because of --

So got through about £240 in two days, all because of --. She came in Thursday in white summer dress and looked so PRETTY, so elegant, so ladylike. Had two great private dances. Then Friday she was already there in tight red trousers, tight over bum but flared at ankle, and pretty white blouse which showed off her pert upturned breasts. What a beauty Always looks so classy.
After first dance I think she came and sat with me at far end of bar nearest the private dance room, and tried hard to make conversation. She is lovely. Girlfriend material. Had a second dance then left.
So after my long hibernation I have gone a little mad this week. It is understandable. I forgive myself. It had to be done. Now pull myself back in. Resume the saving.


Sunday, 14 April 2019

JOURNALS; VOLUME 2 (2002-2005)

JOURNALS; VOLUME 2 (2002-2005) A Berlin Golden Age. A personal memoir of erotic indulgence in the florid & lurid red light districts of Munich, Berlin & Vienna, and 18-year-old Swedish barmaids.

Tuesday, 9 April 2019

Lissie tonight but still in bed

Lissie tonight but still in bed, not going, Cold, rainy. Spent a lot last seven days on beer, so better to stay in while so cold. Think of mother. Think of any potential illness I might have. Think of VIENNA at Christmas! Think of £9,999.

Thursday, 4 April 2019

F**king hell FOURTEENTH anniversary of seeing Romy in Berlin

F**king hell FOURTEENTH anniversary of seeing Romy in Berlin. If she was 26 then she would be 40 now. Wonder what she is doing now? Fat, beautiful, sexy still, happy?
*** Sitting on train to work reading my own paperback book, sitting on train home from work reading my own paperback book; I have achieved what I wanted to achieve in life. God bless Amazon. If anybody else ever reads a copy that is a bonus, but I have achieved what I wanted in my life in being able to read my own paperback books.

Tuesday, 2 April 2019

So here we are, April 2nd, Easter Monday. It is now 81 DAYS since I have been to a pub

So here we are, April 2nd, Easter Monday. It is now 81 DAYS since I have been to a pub. Also of course 81 days since I have seen a naked woman. And of course a bloody Bank Holiday today!
I CAN always go to Soho on weekends and Bank Holidays. And today is a Bank Holiday, AND it is going to be rainy! Yes. Yes. Try those Chinese places as well. One next to 18 Newport someone just mentioned. Yes, have to go out today--it is Easter. Old Saxon new year. Let my annual hibernation be that, Twelfth Night to Easter! The cold weather has made it easier of course!