Wednesday, 5 June 2019

Going down steps at -- station last night passing below me brunette ponytail in low-cut black vest and lovely huge boobies

Going down steps at -- station last night, passing below me brunette ponytail in low-cut black vest and lovely huge boobies. On display. Then she sat on bench bending over to fix shoes giving me another lovely view of those boobies spilling out. Fantastic moment.
This morning Jessy Nelson, wardrobe malfunction, finishing with Mulher Malencia. Fantastic.
Yes, my heavy drinking will lead me into an early grave, but considering I will not have a single penny to look after myself with when I get to retirement age, it's probably just as well. Burn like a firefly, expire young (not yet though! Still too many books to write! Floozies!)
I need the periods of sodden drinking, and I need the periods of abstinence. It is the pendulum that keeps my mechanism moving. The drinking leads me into 'those high nights that persuade us to put off suicide' and the abstinence enables me to record it.
Amazing how much work I can get done (writing work) after two days without alcohol. However, extrapolating that to "Just imagine what you could achieve if you stopped drinking altogether!" is a red herring (perhaps). Without the drinking, I would have done nothing.

Saturday, 1 June 2019

Got through £74 but absolutely extraordinarily sexy day

Got through £74 but absolutely extraordinarily sexy day. Brunette in white dress on way to the horse racing in the Iron Duke. So many sexy girls all around Victoria. Two black girls in miniskirts, huge arses, and at stop outside. At -- stop sexy little blonde in grey hoodie stood SO near me at bus stop, half turned towards me so I could see the cameltoe on her fat pussy in black leggings. -- at -- of course. One Private Dance, two shoes off stage dances from M--. Then the blonde I made eye contact with on bus back to station, and held gaze, then she followed me to my end of platform and again was turned towards me. Then on bus to Victoria, black girl next to me at back seemed to be looking sideways at me. Then I realised I had the bulge of an erection. I moved my bag to make it more obvious then sat the whole way with this massive visible bulge in my trousers. Absolutely thrilling.
M-- in -- then home.